Day 1

Hey there everyone!

So I doubt anyone will read this, but I'm going to do the "New Year's" thing and try and lose weight. No, it's not a resolution, instead it's a "oh crap I realized I gained 10 pounds in a month... and that's not good".

I'm by no means overweight, I'm just unhappy with where I am at. Being overweight and having problems that come with that are starting to show up in my family, and I want to stay away from that.
My half brother and sister are still in high school, but are in amazing athletic shape - I'm jealous. I wasn't like that in high school - Marching Band wasn't really an athletic sport... (but I did lose weight every band camp!)

I never started worrying about my weight until college, when I was on the shot birth control which caused me to sky rocket up 30 pounds. :( Since then, I've been averaging about 150, which is a good weight for someone my height (5'8") but it's all fat now.

I've had a huge appetite overhaul, which I know has been disastrous - I was called the bottomless pit when I was young, and I never put on any weight. Unfortunately, the bottomless pit appetite is back,  but damn I wish I had the metabolism I used to.

I battle with depression and anxiety, as it seems many people do nowadays, and I'm trying to get off my medications - causing the dreaded side effect of weight gain.

My goal is lose 18 lbs (I'm 158 today, and I'd like to be 140... less would be nice, but lets not be greedy).

I want to look healthy, feel healthy, and be happy with who I am. I know there are some people that wish they could be 158, but this is the heaviest I've ever been (for the 2nd time). I don't have energy, I feel weak when I do anything, and I know that I'm headed in a bad direction if I don't change something about my lifestyle.

I plan on blogging (again I doubt anyone would want to read my ramblings) just to keep me in my place, and to keep track of my life.

So... for today:

Weight: 158

Food log:

- 2 packets of Strawberries & Cream oatmeal (130 cals each) with water
- glass of 2% milk -- wish I could go back to 1%, but the boyfriend doesn't like it... I might go back to almond milk as well
- buffalo turkey sandwich on a roll with provolone & thousand island dressing.... probably not the best for me :/, but we need to finish it before it goes bad
- honey mustard and onion pretzels - one serving
- 5 potato pierogies w/ onions
- 2 hershey kisses - I suckered into some sweets, but I said no to pudding!
Activity:

- went to the gym for 1:05... and I burned 750 cals. <3 my polar heart rate monitor. Ran/walked for 30 mins and then did some strength training

If anyone still is here paying attention, I'd love to have someone who could be my buddy in forcing me (and I'd do the same) to make sure we stick to our plans.